Drowning out the World
a persistent, irrational fear of a specific object, activity, or situation that leads to a compelling desire to avoid it.
Do you have a phobia? I do … and it frustrates me that I can not banish it.
“The wise man in the storm prays to God, not for safety from danger, but deliverance from fear” ~Ralph Waldo Emerson
Right now our entire region is under a tornado watch. I am at work with my ipod on my head as I do everything in my power to drown out the world outside. I am terrified … I repeat, TERRIFIED, of thunderstorms. This is not a good phobia to have seeing as I can not control the weather and it does seem, as the definition suggests, to be completely irrational.
I know what you are thinking. I should go “see someone” about my problem. Well, I have. My therapist at the time traced this particular phobia back to an evacuation from the Gulf Coast of Mississippi that took place due to Hurricane Frederic (I think) in 1979. We were in the States that year and my parents own a home in Gulfport, Mississippi. I have strong recollections of packing quickly and beginning a drive north to avoid the storm … but my father stayed behind. To this day, I do not understand that decision, but apparently it made a huge impact on me and my childhood psyche. Twenty-nine years later and I am still shaking in my boots in the midst of this bad storm.
Does anyone else out there have an unexplainable phobia that you are willing to share?
"I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain." ~Frank Herbert, Dune