I Think I Should Play Me

"Who's going to play me? I think I should play me." ~Adaptation, Film (2002)

I have been trying to determine for quite some time which fictional character I would want to be … or which ones more closely represent the me that I am. This process actually began before I published the lists of fictional places
I want to visit and those you can’t pay me to visit and will be my final (maybe) entry in what somehow became a short little series.

I considered, at some point, listing those fictional characters with whom I have been infatuated, but I covered that subject last year when I created
this mosaic. It is a fairly accurate list minus the noticeable absence of Captain Malcolm Reynolds from Firefly who was omitted in an obvious moment of insanity. There were only nine in that mosaic, so we’ll add Mal at the top of that list and consider it complete. Ta da! That was easy.

I wish selecting my own representation of fictional characters was as simple. Let me begin by confessing that none of Jane Austen’s heroines made the list. I came to the Austen party late in life. I thought reading Austen was too “girlie” for me. But, as an English Literature major in university, it was inevitable that I would find myself with one of her six novels in hand … eventually. Now I own them all. I started with Persuasion (still my favorite) and found myself an Austen convert. There are a number of online “Which Austen Heroine Are You?” quizzes. Confession: I have taken several of them and the answer is always the same. Elizabeth Bennett. On some levels, Lizzie and I are very much alike (beyond sharing the same name). She is headstrong, quick tempered, witty, independent and honest. I carry those characteristics as well; however, I also tend to be very stoic, practical, and firmly ensconced in responsibility … much like Elinor Dashwood. Truthfully, I find several things in common between myself and most Austen heroines with the exception of Emma. No, there is no part of me in Emma. Thank goodness.

After much deliberation, here is my final current list of fictional characters I would love to be OR those who could, quite easily, be me.

10. She-Ra the Princess of Power
Cartoon Character: He-Man Universe

I’ve always said my superpower would be the ability to speak to animals. Well, Princess Adora (aka: She-Ra) has that power … telepathically, of course. I was one of those girls that wanted to be He-Man until his twin sister, She-Ra, was introduced to the cartoon world. She has superhuman speed and is also able to heal by touch. And, like He-Man, she has her own sword. This one: The Sword of Protection. (In truth, I had difficulty choosing between She-Ra and Cheetara from Thundercats. Both of them almost made the list, but it was not meant to be.)

9. Ahsoka Tano
Saga Character: Star Wars - The Clone Wars

Yes, she is Anakin Skywalker’s (aka: Darth Vader) padawan, but she is spunky, determined, aggressive, talented, mouthy, and reckless. Not to mention, I needed an excuse to be a Jedi … even only one in training … and the personality fits.

8. Commander T’Pol
Saga Character: Star Trek - Enterprise

Let’s forget for a moment that T’Pol is the science officer onboard Enterprise and that science was one of my worst subjects. Let’s also forget that she is Vulcan and I’m not terribly logical most of the time. Over-analytical? Yes. Logical. Not so much. She is actually much more emotional than the average Vulcan. I, on the other hand, tend to be more stoic and less emotional (on the surface) than the average human female. Perhaps our personalities meet somewhere in the middle. T’Pol is seen in the Vulcan community as a rebel, especially for the curiosity she exhibits in regard to human culture and emotions.

7. Josephine (Jo) March
Literary Character: Little Women by Louisa Ma Alcott

“Jo is independent, tempestuous, vivacious, clever, and self-confident. She struggles throughout the story to learn to control her temper and her tendency to hold a grudge. She is a tomboy who is more interested in reading and playing games than in primping or gossiping with girls her age.” ~enotes.com (They said it better than I can.) Again, sound like anyone you know?

6. Honey Ryder
Literary/Movie Character: Dr. No by Ian Fleming

In the book she’s Honeychile Rider. In the movie she’s Honey Ryder. Either way, she is the iconic Bond girl. Like many of the characters on this list she is independent and headstrong. I like that.

5. Selene
Movie Character: Underworld

Oh, come on … this is me. You had to know I would choose to be a vampire true immortal somewhere along the way. The name “Selene” originates in Greek mythology. She is the titan goddess of the moon. Ironic, as Selene is a vampire in the movies and not a lycan. Anyway … Selene is an emotionally strong character, proficient in weaponry and often exhibits superhuman traits such as super strength. She is a warrior. She also has a heart that she has guarded for an untold amount of time until Michael the vampire/lycan hybrid enters her life and she falls in love. Of course, I know no one close to me who seriously guards her heart.

4. Black Cat
Comic Book Character: Marvel Comics

Her name is Felicia Hardy and, much like my favorite comic character Bruce Wayne/Batman, she has no superpowers. Well, in the beginning she had no superpowers (long story). She trains her body, uses her own wits and ingenuity and has great gadgets. She is also a semi-reformed thief. I won’t delve into her history but she is an awesome anti-heroic character: streetwise, strong and a wee bit morally ambiguous. And … she has my eyes.

3. Beatrice
Literary Character: "Much Ado About Nothing" by William Shakespeare

Methinks Shakespeare liked his women sassy. Beatrice may not be his most in depth female character, but she is the wittiest. She is sarcastic and jaded and lively. A master of quick wit she uses masterful word artillery against Benedick in their brilliant verbal sparring that is, without question, the highlight of the play. But, behind Beatrice’s laughing eyes and witty mouth hides a woman capable of loving deeply, as well as a woman with an incredibly fierce temper. Sound familiar?

2. Éowyn of Rohan
Literary Character: The Lord of the Rings by J.R.R. Tolkien

A Shieldmaiden of Rohan, Éowyn is one of the great literary tomboys. She feels trapped in her life of nobility and longs for glory and honor … which she eventually earns by disguising herself as a man and joining the Battle of Pelennor Fields where she defeats the Witch-King.

"But no living man am I! You look upon a woman. Éowyn I am, Éomund’s daughter. You stand between me and my lord and kin. Begone, if you be not deathless! For living or dark undead, I will smite you, if you touch him." ~J.R.R. Tolkien, The Return of the King

I have claimed to “be” Éowyn since I first read The Lord of the Rings in junior high. We have much in common and I often feel caged by female responsibility … longing for something more. In the beginning, I took issue with the casting of Miranda Otto for the films. But, she has grown on me and I feel she brings authenticity to the character.

1. Lara Croft
Video Game Character: Tomb Raider

Let me be honest. I might give up my first born child to have the body that Angelina Jolie was sporting in the first Tomb Raider movie. I’d be tempted, but that isn’t all I want. Characteristically Lara is strong-willed, brave, super confident, a risk taker, and completely bad ass. Born into English nobility she is also well-educated, worldly, shrewd and bloody brilliant … traveling around the world
plundering in search of archaeological treasures and ancient civilizations. Do I want her life? Absolutely.

I’m done. Whew. Runners-up: Buffy Summers (Buff the Vampire Slayer) and Zoe Washburne (Firefly) came so close (as in they were on the list and then I took them off) but I had to limit the list to a top ten and not a top twelve.

Of course, in the end, it’s always better to be one’s authentic self. Don’t you think?

“The authentic self is the soul made visible.” ~Sarah Ban Breathnach


  1. Buffy's pretty far up on my list, though not as high as she would have been eight or nine years ago. I was a lot bossier and moodier back then. (My husband is so very glad I've mellowed with age.)

    For some strange reason, I heavily identify with Trixie from Deadwood—though I'm about as far from the feisty hooker with a heart of gold and balls of steel as you can possibly get. I think it is her combination of realism and determination to make reality better, even at risk to herself, just because she knows it is the right thing to do. She's a very moral character, despite her profession. And she curses like a cowboy, which doesn't hurt.

    I also feel affinity with the Julie Delpi (sp?) character in the Linklater films. She's jaded and funny, but still nakedly idealistic at times.

    Hmmm. I'll have to give this a bit more thought.

  2. For some reason, I also thought I'd find Buffy on your list.

    Also, now I know where your temporary twitter avatar hails from. Yeah, she does have your eyes.

  3. Aly ~ Yes, a few years ago Buffy would have been on my list and near the top. Ah, times change. I get the Trixie appeal. It's ironic, actually, how many fictional prostitutes are written with strong moral character.

    Mo ~ As I mentioned, Buffy came close. Like that avatar? I do. She's me as I see myself. =)

  4. k first of all? LOVED Adaptation. Great movie.

    Secondly, thank GOD there is no Emma in you, because that would make you SO ANNOYING.

    And finally? Beatrice and Éowyn are two of my all time favorite female characters in literature! No surprise that I like you so much I guess.

  5. YOU, are important, whatever the fantasies may be.

  6. Ah, I missed that part.

    Nice avatar. Nonetheless, like I mentioned, your regular one trumps it.

    Hope you're having a fab Sunday.

  7. I love this list and I think I may have to copy this from you and do my own list at some point! : )

  8. Melain ~ ((Hugs))

    Davo ~ I am, aren't I?! ((Hugs)) to you too!

    Mo ~ Oh, hell... ((Hugs)) all around.

    Alex ~ Steal away, my friend. Move safely!!!


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