These are the voices which we hear in solitude, but they grow faint and inaudible as we enter into the world. Society everywhere is in conspiracy against the manhood of every one of its members. ~ Ralph Waldo Emerson
[In celebration of Ralph Waldo Emerson’s 208th birthday… we pledge to write... #Trust30.]
Is fear holding you back from living your fullest life and being truly self expressed? Put yourself in the shoes of the you who’s already lived your dream and write out the answers to the following:Is the insecurity you’re defending worth the dream you’ll never realize? or the love you’ll never venture? or the joy you’ll never feel?Will the blunder matter in 10 years? Or 10 weeks? Or 10 days? Or 10 minutes?Can you be happy being anything less than who you really are?Now Do. The Thing. You Fear.(Author: Lachlan Cotterl)
Put myself in the shoes of the me who has already lived my dream…
… the me who many never live that dream?
Maybe this is my dream. Clearly it is my purpose. Or, it is now.
I lived so many tortured years feeling angry and guilty that I was forced to live with the consequences of my own not-in-my-right-mind actions. Not normal actions, mind you… I can deal with those. Accepting responsibility has never been my problem. Coming to terms with decisions that I made and actions I took prior to my bipolar diagnosis, however, has been the most difficult personal reconciliation of my adult life. One ridiculously manic summer, the year I turned nineteen, drastically altered the path of my life… for many more minutes than ten and years far beyond ten.
Here’s the kicker: Given a time machine and the chance to change it, would I? Likely not.
This is who I am… although something is missing. I have yet to pinpoint exactly what that something is to me… but I know it is vital. I know that when I find it, I will be unstoppable… and that is my fear. Yes, to an extent, I am petrified of the amazing within me.
Can I be happy with less than who I really am? Yes.
Can I be content? No.
It’s time to start pulling back the layers in search of what I am missing. Hopefully I will know how to control what I find.